I am so sad to hear your story, how very sad for you. I went through a similar time last year, and it was absolutely horrible! I could think of nothing else and there were times that I thought I would just kill myself if I had to live another day without my baby. It was a hellish 8 months and would fill a book to tell you all that happened, but surfice it to say that a cruel fate befell me no matter where I turned for comfort and relief! If you only lived closer my Breeder friend is having a litter next week. Her little Gerbil is just 7 days away and she invited me over to see the birth! I am ver excited!
Just hang in there, though I know only to well how hard it is. Even though I have Dennis, my heart still breaks for my little Raisin. I lost her a year ago October 6th and I still can’t look at her picture, though I buried her with all the hard copies knowing that I can’t bear to see her little face and not be able to hold her again.
I know you are heartbroken and my heart hurts for you, and I know some people can be so terribly heartless and irresponsible but you have to let it run off your back and stay in the game and don’t loose sight of the target! Keep looking, start praying, follow every ad, and search every paper and keep reading here because someone might know someone in your area.
I will pray that you find your little one soon.
With Love,
Sue |