[orlnurse]

Originally Posted by Cookie2

I've been knocked out for about 2 hrs. Today is just bad for me. I dont express how I'm feeling like I do here. So I'm sorry if I vent constantly here.
Today I got so sick to my stomach I didnt know what was wrong. My husband was driving and I just got goosebumps and wanted to throw up. He got me home and I just gagged over and over but nothing. I fell asleep on the sofa had Angel, my husband's yorkie literally fall asleep next to my face and Lola the Maltese joined him and fell asleep on my legs. My husband said that he will be here for me no matter what but he wanted to bring out the Christmas decorations at least to decorate the inside
I usually decorate every room in this house, even my kitchen will have a tree decorated. But I am just dreading that box with all our christmas stockings and there is Cookie's stocking with his picture on it. I dont want to open that. I will have to let them at least put up the tree. My daughter's seem miserable because they want their "clowny mom" back. I'm begging God to pleeeeeease let me be able to at least function ato 50% for them.
My husband's eyes seem so full of pain and he tells me the pain is more because he sees my suffering. Don't worry guys, no matter what is posted on this thread. I have not taken it very personal. I dont have the strength for that. I know words sometime seem so different when you read them instead of hear the person.
I have enough for the 5,000 postcards from what was donated and my mom will offer a reward of $700 cash from a credit card. She's on a fixed income but I can pay her back monthly. I know this can go either way with people calling. But I have read here and other forums how the money changed a person's mind about keeping the dog. Cookie is not worth more than $100 in his current health condition. He has such terrible teeth problems, bad luxating pattella and his liver disease that needs to be monitored that he is only priceless to me. I will eat some soup and try to get rest today. I need to be strong and alert as possible tomorrow. Ihave calls to make to several shelters that emailed me regarding some yorkies found. They are not closeby ..about 1 hr away but they were found about 1-2 weeks ago so I need to check that out.About that woman that called and said that the yorkie ran off. I will check that out as well. I'm not knocking but there will be flyers posted all over that area tomorrow plus taped to each mailbox.

Gen

Gen,
I read your posts everyday and I feel your pain. Please let me know if there is anything else I can do for you. Still hoping for Cookie's safe return.