[ally173]

i went today to the hospital and gave them her favorite toy, bed, clothes.........
i wanted to see her but the vet said it's best for her not to see me; which i understand.
she told me i can apply for carecredit which is a credit card with interest; however i told her if i pay 4000 plus interest and this happens again then i start with square one
she said yes unfortunately this looks like a genetic disease that can't be avoided; she will have these episodes throughout her life; and she told me that i am making the right decison and doing something good for the dog; since she needs medical care all her life; and that someone from the hospital will adopt her and take care of her whenever she's sick for free. so that made me feel a bit better and i think i got close tonight;
it's still hard and i miss her but this is best for her
thanks again for ur support

take care

elly