Suzanne, I'm sorry you had that experience with and at the counselors. It is so important to find some who you can trust to talk with.
It sounds as though you spirit is very much alive in there somewhere...just hold on and it will find it's way. Giving you a great

!
Enjoy your Thanksgiving and I am glad that you had a talk with your son; with him behind you hopefully that is one step closer to feeling better.