Yes, I am saying prayers for you and that life gets better for you too. I hope that if you have not found a job yet, that one opens up for you soon.
Sometimes, it is better to get up and get out into the world and get lost in the hub bub of life when we have such a terrible loss.
Just some suggestions, but when you feel a bit better, maybe volunteering at the local animal shelter, where you can help with rehab and pets who are going to be placed might be a good place to start. A no kill shelter would be better if there is one nearby.
At one of our local shelters, they allow people to place the dogs on leashes and go for walks and to be groomed and played with so that they will be more likely to be friendly and chosen by folks who qualify!
3 years ago in the fall of the year, we lost our dog to cancer in October, my father died in November and my very favorite cat had to be put to sleep due to cancer the following January.
Going to the pet store and petting the babies, was what helped get me through it and it is how I found my Abby
Not that I am pushing pet store dogs and cats, but it is free to go and snuggle with them for a few and it sure gives me an uplift!
They also have dogs and cats from the local shelter there for adoption.
Hugs from Abby and me