I think I am one that gives all my "energy" to other people. I feel for everyone, I push everyone to recovery, I push everyone to their happiness, and when they are and I sit down to recover and recharge my energy, I realize that I am yet again the one left alone and lonely. I have no "energy" left for others right now. I have no more joy, concern, sadness, hugs, advice, compassion, nothing left to GIVE to others right now. I am truly sucked dry. I really feel like I need someone to give me some of their "energy", I need someone to really care. I can't give anymore to my family or my friends or even my boyfriend. When did it become my job to emotionally take care of everyone around me?
__________________ “Petting, scratching, and cuddling a dog could be as soothing to the mind and heart as deep meditation and almost as good for the soul as prayer.” ― Dean Koontz |