My mom said something to me this weekend that made sense. She finally talked to me, I mean really took time to talk to me. She rarely does because my 2 brothers always need so much and shes in school fulltime and we are so far away from each other... but she listened to me rant and she read between the lines. She told me that I am a planner and I like to know how the next step of my life is going to work before I'm done the current step. Most of my family is spontaneous, does not think things through and will have many challenges and heartache to go through from their bad or impetuous decisions. I think and plan things out and because of that I won't face as many challenges, of course this postpones everything... I want everything now, but I don't either...I like to finish one thing at a time, before I start another. aaahhhh Im feeling better today... I know everyone has their own challenges and things to face in this lifetime. Sometimes we just need to vent. Thanks for listening and responding.
I also find repeating the Serenity prayer in my head over and over again helps me calm down and feel more in control
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.