 Roxy gone without a sign or warning
she was only 5. She wasn't sick or anything. I left to go to work and my daughter called me about 8 hours later saying that she was scared and blood was everywhere. I left work, no questions asked. i work about 5 minutes from home and the vets office is literally around the corner from my home. I rushed through the door and Roxy was laying on the floor barely breathing. I was so scared to touch her I didn't know what to do. I was in total shock. My daughter picked her up and put her in her bed and we rushed her to the vets office. They rushed her in the back and put her on a ventilator... between home and the vet she was gone but they brought her back. I was too scared to see her. I have lost a child before and because of it, death and me don't understand one another. My Roxy, my rose turned out to be brain dead. I fell to my knees crying what am I suppose to do with out her. My husband left to be there for me and with me, and so did my best friend.
Dr. Knowles told me that he may see this case once a year, some animals can get a rare bacteria from eating grass, dirt whatever and it takes over and there are no signs and their vital organs begin shut down. My baby... gone without a sign or warning.
i have some relief in knowing that she waited for me to get home before she left. but I cant help but think... what could I have done. what did I do wrong... I miss her oh Lord do I miss her. She was my 3 pound baby... a small Yorkie with a big breed mentality. I will and can not ever forget her.
i have not taken this well. My husband and kids did bring me a new Yorkie. I named him Yoda. He is my heart. He was not to replace Roxy, but to fill in that hole that I will forever have.
Sometimes I think I can hear her bark. I miss her greeting me at the door. i miss her fussing because she wanted me to pick her up, I miss her chasing my cat. I just miss everything about her.
I love you Roxy... from the day I met you at 4 days old until you turned 5 years old. I will forever miss you!!
My Roxy
September 14, 2004-September 28, 2009 |