My father is also an alcoholic and has been for as long as I can remember. I really don't have a relationship with him...not because he's an alcoholic, but because of things that have happened because he's an alcoholic. I'm at peace with my "non relationship" with him. I do not wish him ill and I hope he has peace in his life. I also desire the same for myself. If a relationship isn't there is isn't there, and I don't believe there is anything "wrong" with your feelings when it comes to your father, and have never understood how all of a sudden we are supposed to feel differently when someone is ill, has an accident, etc. Relationships are complicated and just because we are related biologically, we are not required, nor is it sometimes possible to be "close" to those who are "family". Do what you feel is right for you and your son....juliet |