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Originally Posted by megansmomma  I am sure that it was his dad! I have talked about my experience in the past with my dad after he passed away. You are correct when you say that it is not scary just kind of settling and puts you almost at ease. I miss him so much even now and it has been been almost 30 yrs since he has been gone  It has been quite a while since I have felt him around me and I have to say that I miss that feeling and I miss him so much still.  |
Yeah I know trust me! It's been only 7 years for me
and I think it gets harder as the years go by.. You know, it's such a terrible thing to deal with..there is no way of getting past it, or thinking it will get better...I don't know maybe as the years go it will get easier but I don't see how they will.. Unless I get stronger lol and I don't see that taking place, not with this. I think of it as that was a part of me, my blood, my father the person who helped bring me into this world and now he is gone. just like that off the face of the earth... So many times I think to myself "man I wish he was here so I can tell him... or I wish he was here so I can show him.... You know.. What I would give just to hug him ( the real him not spirit him) and feel him...
You know what else I don't even go to his grave!
I can't I went one time with my dh and it was sooo hard for me, it took me about an hour to walk up to his grave site. I know that he doesn't mind me not going bc I know that he sees how hard it is for me... My Mom will go and clean up his area..clean his tombstone, put flowers, and sit there for like 3 hours! I just cant. Its really mind boggling for me.. All I think is he is under me in the dirt!! Laying there...thats all I think and I dont want to think of him like that.. So I know what you are going thru!!
I can go on and on lol.. Just know if you ever need to vent or ramble or even tell me stories about your Dad I am hear!! Its eaiser to listen when the person you are telling has delt with it
