Monica, I am so sorry for your loss. I know that it is very very hard and to accept that it was someone so close to you and that she was so young. I know what you are going through. My very best friend since Kindergarden passed away last year of a massive heart attack. We always did everything together, she was always at my house it seems until we got married. I had just talked to her the night before and we were discussing my baby shower. Then that morning my mom called as my husband and I were getting ready to go to work and told my husband to tell me. They said she got up from a chair to go toward the bedroom and fell over in the floor and she was dead before the ambulance even got there. She was only 26!! I have never cried so much, and I couldn't even go up to look at her at the funeral home. Her mom came to my baby shower and she brought an outfit to me that she found as she was cleaning out her stuff from her home that she had gotten my son and I will keep it as long as I live. I just wanted you to know that I know your pain and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you do well with your recovery from your surgery. God bless
