This is kinda embarrassing but I have mentioned on here that I almost lost my life in a bad car accident and my best friend did in 2002. Over the years I have developed PTSD... It's strange, I was okay in the first couple of years and it got progressively worse. Awhile back I went to counseling for it and it was helping but my insurance would only cover so many sessions and when I had to stop it came right back. Basically, my PTSD always expects the worse to happen.
My husband is going to be receiving some money on the 1st and the plan was to get Tobie neutered then. However, every time I think about making the appointment I start feeling major anxiety and imagine them calling me and telling me that something bad happened. I want to get him neutered for health reasons and because he will never be bred. I would have a hard time dealing with him dying for something he didn't HAVE to have done.
Both of my other boys were neutered before I got them and my girl got pyometra (sp?) so her spay was to save her life... yea, I was really nervous but she was 15 years old at the time and I was already coming to terms with the fact that my time was getting limited with her.
I love YT, it has helped me so much and made me feel better in a lot of instantances but the bad stories about anesthesia has made me paranoid. That's just how PTSD works, once you hear a bad story that gets ingrained in your head and you constantly worry about it. For example, one of the stories that someone's baby was excited and running through the house and wasn't watching where she was going... she ran into a wall and died instantly. I wish I had never read that thread because now I get so paranoid when Tobie gets the zoomies and I imagine that happening.
I went back and forth on whether to talk about this because like I said, it's kind of embarrassing to admit. If anyone else has suffered from PTSD or panic/anxiety attacks... you know it's horrible.
Can anyone help talk some sense in to me to help me get through this. What are the actual chances of something happening? Is it anesthesia deaths actually kinda rare? I know there are differing opinions on S/Ning but for those of you who are for it... do you have any advice for me? Sometimes it helps if people point out the rational way or thinking instead of my sometimes irrational/worried way of thinking.... thanks guys
