[altigger74]

Thank you all so much. The hardest thing right now is the not knowing why. I've been doing some research this week and on a forums for woman that obgyn's answer questions, this dr said that it sounded like I had an incompetent cervix which means that the cervix dialated and opened due to the weight of the uterus. I don't know, maybe we'll find out tuesday. Right now we are just taking it minute by minute. As long as I don't close my eyes I'm ok, when I do I see him. I'm just going through the sadness and anger.
Monday was hard, we had to set up the cremation and urn and then wednesday we had to pick up the urn. My DH and I have just been hangin on by a thread. Thank God for our two boys that we do have, they have kept us grounded.

I'm trying to take the advise of many by talking about it, it's much easier to type it than to voice it.