[jenn1381]

Oliver is throwing up again. It started out just in the morning yesterday, but today he's been sick multiple times. He won't touch food, although he did have a couple bites of plain boiled chicken about an hour ago and so far has kept it down. I don't have any rice on hand, or I was gonna make that, but I tried to give him some plain canned pumpkin and he wouldn't take it. I've been following him around outside to see how his bowl movements are, but no dice yet. I don't see anything unusual out there now.

If it keeps up, we'll be heading to the vet in the morning. He is playful and even played ball with me for about 15 minutes, I cut the game short though as I don't want to overdo it with him being ill, especially with him not eating. He is drinking, and he's playing with his toys. He's so hard to read sometimes. He just laid down at my feet for a rest, so I guess even a little bit of play took everything out of him.

I've having a tough time with this emotionally, as I feel like I made a mistake getting a rescue. I knew there could and likely would be health issues, I just worry that this is now the 2nd time that he's been ill since I got him, so this could be a lifelong thing. Even if he does recover I am going to request a full blood panel just to be sure. I love him more than life itself, but if there's something really wrong and I can't afford to take care of it, I need to allow the rescue group he came from to find someone who can. I worry about liver shunt and know that if it is that, I will likely need to surrender him. I don't think it is, based on his symptoms, but the thought still runs through my mind. I should likely request that test as well.

We are supposed to leave on Sunday for 2 weeks to see my brother, and I am so looking forward to finally meeting my one year old niece. I am terrified that he'll be too sick to go, and I'll have to stay here with him. My emotions are just running wild and I guess I could use a little prayer too! I need this vacation desperately, and I really need to finally see my little one and hold her and let her know how much auntie Jen loves her... but Ollie is my #1 priority and if I have to stay, I will. It will just break my heart.

Hopefully his little tummy settles and a vet trip isn't needed and I don't have to miss a day of work again. If it is, please pray it's something minor and that he starts to feel better soon. It breaks my heart to see him sick.

Sorry for the ramble.