Michiko, I am so sorry to hear about your mother. It is so hard to be away from our moms when they are sick. They are the closest people on the earth to us and they are like a part of us. I can only guess how much you are hurting.
BUT, remember you are going to have legal company soon, I mean your boyfriend. The landlord cannot tell you that you cannot have him so I would wait til he moves in and see if his company helps with your depression. I think it will. It worries me that you will get the dog, give it your heart, learn to love it so much and then your landlord could say "The dog goes or you go!" Do you think that would be worse?
I lived in Maryland when my mother got sick in Florida. I was a nurse and just had no way to get to her for a while. I truly thought my heart would break! It almost did but I did make it through. I think you will too.
I am saying prayers that your mom is getting stronger each day and that your sadness will be less every day. |