I know how you feel. This is your life & no matter what we tell you, you will do what your heart tells to. But first thing is that he is married & needs to resolve that before you can be in his life again. My heart is pitter pattering just reading your post. Believe me I have been there & know exactly how you feel. It is hard to control those feelings no matter how hard you try. But again he is married. I know that you had him first but you wouldn't want this done to you if you were married. There is nothing wrong with talking to him & helping him through this trying time for him. Just keep a distance until there is a divorce or legal separation. But again, it is your heart & you know what you feel. Good Luck & please keep us posted. I'm smiling knowing how your heart is racing right now & your mind is racing also. Man on man do I know how you feel.