Sigh.... where do I even begin. First off I am so exhausted. Mentally and physically. Tatum was panting incredibly hard at the vet, and I mean incredibly hard. Even more than she has been because I think she was nervous about being there. She was also shaking like a LEAF. The vet listened to her chest and he said he heard some rattling. He wanted to do a full blood panel on her (we just had one done 2 months ago when she had her LP surgery) - it came back normal then, and it came back normal today. All was good there. He said that she has an infection in her chest
and put her on antibiotics. So she is
back on Clavamox. I swear she has been on Clavamox more times than I can even count. Honestly, I can't remember how many times she's been on this stuff. I just need to get a whole box of this stuff. He also gave her a shot, which obviously hurt like hell (excuse my french) because she SCREAMED and threw her head back and was squirming all over the place. The nurses said it burns really bad....I was like oh great, thanks for telling me that. Wish they could of given it to me instead. Then they were taking blood and the stupid nurse didn't know what she was doing and stuck her 3 times, and that hurt her too. UGH!! That made me SO mad!
And I let them know it. I told them, "oh my gosh...you have to stick her AGAIN? How many times are you going to have to stick her?????" I'm sorry...but GEEZ. She was in enough stress already. I am just so fed up!
I mentioned to the vet about Tatum grinding her teeth the other tonight so he was looking in her mouth and said, "Oh she has a loose baby tooth that needs to come out" - I am like....OH MY GOD....are you frigging KIDDING ME???? They were supposed to of pulled all her baby teeth when she was 9 months old!!! She 3 and 1/2!!! What the h*ll!!!!
So now not only do I have to pay ANOTHER high vet bill to get the tooth pulled in a few days, but she has to be put under Anesthesia AGAIN all for ONE friggin tooth!!!! I swear to you all, I swear I am just going to break down and cry. I mean I am so serious. I cannot take anymore, I just can't. Oh but wait... it gets even
better.
When the vet was listening to her chest, he was messing around with her throat and he stops and just looks at me. I am like NO....PLEASE NO. Please do not even tell me what I think your about to tell me PLEASE DO NOT DO IT. I am like I swear to God if you tell me her Trachea is collapsed I am just going to faint right here in your friggin' office. I mean you guys...HOW MUCH CAN I POSSIBLY TAKE WITH ONE LITTLE DOG!!! HOW MUCH!!!
He is like well I am not going to diagnose it right
now...but I cant guarantee that in a year or 2..... I am just...
By this point I am mad, sad, frustrated, annoyed, in disbelief...you name it. I couldn't even hardly say anything. I am like you have seriously got to be kidding me. She just has TWO freakin' knee surgeries 2 months ago that was almost $4,000.00!!!! Now she may need Trachea surgery in the future! Today's visit was almost $500...plus she needs a tooth pulled in a few days and that is going to be outrageous being that she has to be put under Anesthesia! I mean I just cannot believe ANY of this. I just can't. I don't even remember the last time I took her to the vet and it was less than $200 or $250...heck, that seems
cheap to me now! Usually when I take her it's $300-$500. I told hubby that I am going to go add up all her vets bills (JUST HERS ALONE) and see how much they total out to in the 3 and 1/2 years that we've had her. He said don't do it you'll probably faint. I am the only one that walks through that vets doors who they know by NAME. And they know Tatum by name too. I mean it is so pathetic! WHY does she have so many problems!! Why!!!
Tatum was $2500 and has champion bloodlines and has I swear just about every problem in the book. Stedman was $800, NO champion bloodlines and honestly didn't come from a very good breeder and he has nothing. Absolutely nothing. I just don't get it and I want to cry. I love Tatum to death and she is the apple of my eye but I just do not know how much more I can take with her. She is costing us
SO much money, and it's CONSTANT. I don't want anyone here to think I am talking bad about my baby, I am not. I love her more than words can say (honestly) but I mean I just can't believe any of this. It is constantly, constantly one thing after another. All the time!!! I just don't understand. She is taken care of so well by us, she is on all these supplements....God. I just don't understand. Sometimes I just want to crawl in a hole and cry. My heart breaks for her. I look at her and she is this tiny sweet little baby and she has all these problems...and I just ask myself, WHY. It makes me hubby and I so sad because we love her soooo much and she has just been through it all. And she is only 3 and 1/2. Hubby is like, "Brooke, if it's this bad now...and she's only a little over 3....what is it going to be like when she's older?"
I'm just so upset. She isn't even acting like herself right now. She was just standing there perfectly still staring at her toy box a little while ago. She is so quiet and just stands there.
I don't know...I am just so angry, sad and depressed. I'm just so tired of all these problems. She doesn't deserve them and it is so dang stressful on us.