I am so sorry for your loss. We all go thru the different stages of mourning.... the first step is always denial.... our heart don't always understand as what reality may be. Our hearts long for the little ones to be or do what they normally do when they were physically here. My baby had been gone for more than year and I still sometimes think I saw him running around my apt.... my mind had accepted what happened but my heart seem to have a big challenge of letting go.....
Its never an easy to deal with death of a love one... it seem even harder when they go so unexpectedly. We had no time to prepare for the shock.... and the many emotions that comes after.
I hope it bring you some comfort to know you are not alone in feeling the way you feel. What bring me a smile is to know I feel this way is because I loved so deeply.... and I couldn't think of a better reason ! I now try to celebrate the feeling because I had a chance to love my baby and my baby had a chance (thou too short) to be in my life.
May God bring you the much needed comfort... may He bring healing and from this we learned to cherish everything even more.
Sandy |