First off let me appologize right off if I seem to be highjacking this thread and turning it to a tribute to our Austrailian Sheppard Rocky who had to be put down this Feb. 9 because of a brain tumor. But Roxies Mom is absolutly right up until 9 years ago I was one of those people who was scared to death of dogs, or come to think of it any animal really. I was brought up with no pets, we had a duck once but still recall being afraid of it. Mom always said to stay away from dogs because they could bite or hurt you, so probablly where the phobia began. Any how I was always terrified of dogs big, small it didn't matter it was a dog, I was so afraid that once I was walking to school and I realized that 2 dogs were behind me and I just started running right across a very busy intersection with out thinking, all I could think is I need to get away! My point is the fear really overtakes you and that's it all you fell is the fear. Now let's fast forward to 9 years ago my daughter was 16 and her boyfriend broke up with her, she didn't take it to well. hubby had the brilliant idea of oh if we get her a dog she'll get over it lol. So he convinced me to go see some pups he saw that were adorable and the parents were very docile and didn't bark. For the sake of my daughter i found the courage and went explaining to my daughter that if i couldn't stay that was it no dog, when we walking in Rocky automatically yelped and rand for my daughter jumping on her and kissing her, and the smile on her face was priceless, I was still afraid and told her I'll think about it. I was still fearful but I wanted to see her happy so I told her she could have him. This is the part of were all my fear just left . When she went to pick him up a week later and brought him home he was in her arms I asked her to put him down so he could get familiar with the surroundings. This poor little thing started shaking like a leaf really bad, he was soooooo terrified and that's all I could see a little poor helpless baby that was terrified, all of a sudden it wasn't a dog that could hurt me but a helpless little baby that was terrified, I actually said oh poor little thing, and cuddle him, (without thinking)and that's when I realized he wasn't a dog but another one of my children.So in Feb. when he got sick and we had to put him down the same moment we found out how sick he was I cried and cried as he trully was a family member. We had him creamated and is home with us. I will always love that big guy. Within 2 weeks of him being gone i just couldn't take not having that love around that presence, I didn't want another big because I felt like I didn't want to replace him, so that's why I went for the adorable chocoalte yorkie (Gizmo)and then of course one is not enough so that's how Stellina came to be. Now I am able to love pick up coudle kiss these dogs without any fear at all( and feel like they are my babies).All this to say yes people do have real God honest fear of dogs. And Rocky I thank you for making me lose that frear and truly feel unconditional love every day of your life......I love you and will always miss you, my baby.xo
again sorry for this being so long. |