I would like to thank you all for your support on this difficult moment for me. I've been too depressed to come online much. I feel like this is the only place I can come to that people will understand me besides my family. I will be pick up Lestat's cremation this Saturday. It will not be easy. I am also gonna have my fiance put a shelf up in my living room where I will place her urn, a frame that I'm still waiting to get in the mail that one side I can place her picture and on the other her clay paw print, I will probably also place her bit of fur that I got to keep in the frame also. I'm gonna look for her best picture to have it blown up so I can put on the wall. I'm also thinking of getting a tattoo of her ink paw print so I can always have her with me. I feel like I let her down by not trying to do anything to save her life. About a month ago I had already arranged to pick up my new yorkie this week and I know I'll love him and everything but now I feel like I'm trying to replace my Lestat when I not. I feel guilty getting another pet so soon but I had already left a deposit so if I dont get him I'll lose out on my money. I dont know what to do. |