I had to put my beautiful cat Lestat of 20 years and 5 months to sleep on May 16 at 5:00pm. She was having kidney and liver failure and nothing could of saved her, not even treatments. As I type this tears are rolling down my face. It was the hardest choice I ever had to make. Keeping her alive would of been very selfish of me cause she was in pain. I'm so lost and don't know what I'll do without her. I keep looking at her usual sleeping spot hoping to see her there and that this is all a bad dream. My home looks so empty without her. Growing up she was like my little sister as i got older she became my daughter. She was my little brat. Its so hard to explain how I feel right now, I'm just so devestated. I don't even know what to do with myself right now. I keep thinking how healthy she seemed a few days ago and how quickly it all went down hill. I have so many good memories of her. She lived a long health and happ life. I'm gonna miss her so much. RIP Lestat
