I know what you are going through. I lost Suri to a very tragic incident. What scares me is too many stories lately sound the same. I saw it happen, she fell over with her eyes open, heart beating, but she didn't make a sound. I did rescue breathing and as soon as her heart stopped CPR. I keep going over it and thinking what I could have done or maybe I did somethig wrong.
I am beyond lost without her and my heart hurts. I have never felt so close to an animal and I am so scared that I will never have that again. She was my perfect girl and past way too early at almost 9 months, a few days before my birthday. We just have to be strong.