I felt that I need to post this. I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me or anything like that. I sometimes just can't stand my life. I know I have depression and I will admit I'm on medication, but does anyone else feel like me? I've been married for 22 years and have a teenager and furbutt but I can't seem to stop feeling this way. I've been to shrink but I cannot afford to keep going and need more medication but can't afford what I need. We don't qualify for any help or assistance. We fall in the loop hole of making too much money for the assistance. Their is a lot of stress in my life and I feel like I'm having a heart attack. Can you say "major panic attacks". I had a serious car accident at the prime of my life. Lost my home, car and job and all my self esteem. I can no longer work due to my disabilities from the car accident. All my husband does is work and when he's home, he falls asleep on me. When we make plans to do something, then he calls me and is forced to work overtime or accepts the overtime to make more money. My daughter is your typical teenager with her smart mouth and attitude. She also has special needs. I bought Chloe to help cheer me up. I love her so much. I love my family, all of them. Now since I can't work, I'm not important anymore. All my family wants is: What's for dinner mom and did you wash my jeans? I feel like I keep going down a spiral hole. I'm a christian lady and I continue to pray. I know the lord is with me and all of this is for a reason. My parents are wonderful and I talk to them about it. There is only so much they can do for me. They listen and offer advice. I want to run away or be admitted to the pysch floor. I'm not going to harm myself or anything like that. I just wanted to know if their is anyone here that feels like me? I'm just really sad and depressed right now.
PS: I hope I don't get in trouble for saying all of this. I'm sorry if I shouldn't have wrote all of this. I just need to get a few things off of my chest.