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Mary

I totally understand how this is affecting your health. While Millie was sick and after she died, I couldnt eat for over a week. I felt constantly sick. But I had closure, and I was able to move on. What you are going through is the most awful thing because it has been going on for so long. I dont know what to say to help you. Emotional damage can cause so much physical damage.

I think you need to find your strength through other things. I hope its not totally insenstive, but do you think getting another dog would distract you enough from Yoshi to get yourself into a good state emotionally and physically. It would perhaps give you the extra strength you need to be able to continue your search for Yoshi. I apologise if this is out of line, but I dont necessarily think any medicine will stop you hurting the way you are, and perhaps you need something positive to focus on.