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Thank you all for your kind words. I just cant stop thinking of her and crying. There is a part of me missing now. And its so hard not to be thinking of the "what ifs". She was seen by different vets on Sunday and Monday night, and while they were concern by the lack of progress, they did not think she would die. They are very shocked to hear our news.

To add salt to the wound, because our insurance doesnt cover elective surgery such as spay, they will not cover any complications that have arisen from it.

At this stage I cant decide if I want another pup. While there was all the love and happiness Millie brought me, and I think another pup would help me through, I feel like I would be betraying her memory in that she could be so easily replaced. She cant be replaced. She had her own personality, her own mannerism and her own wee ways of going about things, and that is what I will miss. I will miss the tremendous wag of the tail we got when we came into the house. The feeling of her snuggled up beside me in the morning. Her reaction when I said "walk", and picked up her lead. None of it will be the same. She was our wee baby, and I cant think of anything else at the minute. I feel so empty.