I probably won't be posting much any more, at least for a while. Stormy finally ended her misery today. She was doing so well the past couple weeks and again the last few days have been tough. About two weeks ago she started really pawing at her face, we went to the vet and she had an ulcher on her eye. We got drops and she seemed to get better again for about a week and again this passed weekend the same thing. We went in today and she still has it plus another one on her other eye. He had us put one of those things on her head so she can't scratch because he thinks she must be scratching it. Well we were home for a couple hours and she was not acting herself, the last two days she's been a little different, but we had family over so I was busy but yesterday she stayed in bed all day and this morning she didn't greet me, of course I thought it was her eyes again so we went in to check. Well I was making dinner and she was trying to have a drink so I took the head thing off so she could drink because she wasn't able to with it on. She just sat there kind of shaking with her head down. I called her over to me and she stumbled over to me, barely making it. She could hardly walk. I started freaking out I checked her gums which looked greyish to me. I gave her some nutri-cal thinking maybe she has been stressed out and low blood sugar, well after a few mins nothing was better. I put her on her bed and started to finish making dinner and she still was just shaking there, so I went to pet her and she just fell into my hand on her side and was laying there, I thought she was about to have a seizure. I called the vet and he said to bring her in. I had my mom meet me there because I was thinking the worse. We got there and he checked her out said she was in critical condition. Her pupils were so dialated you could hardly see them, the size of a pin. She was breathing so heavily and making these little crying sounds. He said he thinks she was bleeding inside, he put a needle in her stomach to check if it was in side there but it wasn't, she had some blood inside her butt. And her gums were really grey/white and started getting these red dots, she was really tense. She was in so much pain it was obvious, she was kind of curling her paws and just closing her eyes. He said she was in really bad shape and we could either go with xrays, blood tests, ultrasounds and so on or just put her to sleep to end the misery for her. I really didn't want to make the decision and it was the hardest in my life but watching him poking her with needles trying to figure out what was wrong was so hard for me, she looked SO bad. Maybe if I had lots of money I could but I was at that vet every month even a few times a month. I have already spent so much money trying to keep her alive. She has went through SOOO much already and it just wasn't fair for her to have to keep living like this. I had two different vets look at her at this clinic and when I first brought her in they told me she was not in good shape. She would be good for a couple weeks and then she was having some kind of problem. I can't believe she is gone. I can't stop crying. I couldn't watch them do it, I just spent some time with her there holding her and telling her how much I loved her and that she was going to feel no pain any more and be happy and not have to hurt any more ever again. It was so hard, it hurts so much.
I will never hold her again or see her beautiful little face. Theres been something wrong with her since I've gotten her, I knew deep down inside there was, but we never got to the bottom of it. I hope you all understand and don't bash me for having her put to sleep but if you all could of been there, it was just horrible. Rest in peace my little Stormy angel
my heart feels like it's been ripped out and stomped on. but I guess this is what happens when your dog is born in a puppymill but irresponsible people. Not only does the dog suffer but a family suffers as well. my daughter is asking where Stormy is and looking around for her, I couldn't bare to keep her things they are outside already, it just pains me so much.