[Latuya]

Thank you all so much!!! I've been feeling a little down. Ok I have shared just bits of my sisters situation here and there. To make a very very very long story short,,,,, she got herself into trouble after a 12 year battle of drug attiction. She had been clean for almost 5 years and found her self in a bad marrage, pregnant and back out hanging around her old friends. She started before getting pregnant but stood clean during pregnantcy,,,,, so she says. When Cherish was 3 moths old she started using again. Took off and that's when we got Cherish the first time. She came back home after 2 weeks and tried to stay clean. She had her families support but as time when by I guess it wasnt enough,,, she left my mothers house to go live with some friends. We seen her less and less... till one day i got a the call. She had been picked up for possession, they let her off but was picked up again. She again got lucky and was let go as long as she went to her drug classes. Well maybe letting her off is not what she needed because she was picked up again for the last time 2 weeks later. This time there was much more to it,,,, I will say she was in the wrong place at teh wrong time. And she knew, but didn't seem to care.

So I was able to pick Cherish up and thanks to s.s. they gave me temp. custody. Now here is where the mess really gets bad,,, (as if that wasnt enough) There is a few different programs that she can go to while doing her time. One of them is the Mother infant program. But It is up to me to let her go. I feel torn apart with this. I really feel deep in my heart that this little girl belongs here till her mother gets out. I don't think she should go to a place where she knows on one and be wanked out the only stable home that she's ever known. I feel that I have betraled my sister for the fact she is my sister,,,,, I try and look at it as if she were not my sister, and that helps a little. I am not by all means trying to keep her daughter away from her. I look foward to her getting out so she can come home and start over a clean new life with her daughter. I really would like you input on this matter. Am I in the wrong by not letting Cherish go?