I'm so sorry for your loss. I know exactly what you mean! I lost my 12 year old baby girl, Becca, unexpectedly last May. The house was so quiet and empty without her that I started looking for another little girl in just days. I brought Chelsea home at 11 weeks old. She reminded me of Becca in a few things, but not what I felt were the important ones. I went through a several week period where I seriously considered finding her a new home because I didn't feel the bonding I'd felt with Becca. But, very slowly Chelsea has wormed her little way into my heart. She's her own little person who's unique and special just as she is and I love her to pieces.
I've realized that I shouldn't have expected to feel an instant connection with Chelsea. My bond with Becca was created over many, many years together. Also, I was still grieving for Becca so strongly that I think I may have resented Chelsea for being there when Becca wasn't. Does that make sense? I had to have the time to say goodbye to my baby girl before I fully welcomed a new one into my heart. Don't misunderstand, I still think of Becca everyday and I am in tears as I write this, remembering her. She was so special! But now I can see that Chelsea is such a wonderful blessing to me as well.
My advice is to give it time. You may never feel the exact same about your new baby, but you will develop a bond that grows stronger with every day, every new memory created. God bless.
__________________ He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion. -- Author Unknown |