It grossed me out too at first, only because I thought that (not to be too graphic here) it would be messy to change in public...I was thinking big mess on hands and stuff. Everyone assured me that you stay clean because it collects it all and it doesn't spill as it comes out.
OP- I am so ultra paranoid about TSS, not to mention I just think that tampons are super uncomfortable. When I have used them I used the slender teen ones (even though I have lots of kids
) and it always just felt like something was in there. I think I would die using supers. I have a crazy story...not really great for a public forum, but long story short, I got af at my mil's and she only had playtex which I never used, and I hate those. I used it since there were no options and when I got home an hour later PANICKED because I couldn't get it out....it was BAD, I was crying and everything, lol...good times.
Anyway, I have gotten a few cycles over the past few months, but they were like hardly anything, so I am anticipating normalacy soon. I don't ever get af back the first year at least of bfing.