[michiko]

Thank you everyone for all your support and kind words. Leaving Haruka is the biggest thing. I know Patti is going to spoil her too much (which I am afraid of.. hehe..) Her family is one of the sweetest families I know. So I am not worried. Plus Patti is great, she could wash Haruka before my bf picks her up in Chicago. I thought about leaving Haruka with Patti for my entire trip but I realized that she might like to be with my bf.. and also in our home. He travels on Monday and comes back on Thursday. Haruka has been to the particular hotel and particular room at hotel before and stayed there with me. So she is a little familiar with it too. I thought the weekend will be such a great feeling for Haruka to be able to sleep on her own bed (my king size bed...) She has no problem traveling... so I am not too worried about that. This was the best I could come up with. So I just need to figure out how I can be okay without Haruka. I truly will miss her. I thought about possiblity that HAruka would be really upset with me when I return. I also understand that she may have separation anxiety when I return... but I can bring her to work... and I think I can definitely assure her that I am around... and I will do the quarantitine process for sure just in case. It takes 6 months and I know for sure that I cannot travel for 6 months because I will be really broke...