I am so sad for you and Mickey. My heart aches and it brings up old feelings back from when I lost my dog of 16 years. I ended up with everyone warning me NOT to get another dog. I knew in my heart when I was ready. ANYWAY the one tidbit of information that my friends did tell me was that you dogs key off of your emotion. After my Sweet Pea died, weeks went by and I was sad and just distraught. I would start feeling good and getting along with my day and catch myself laughing at something or smiling and it would make me feel guilty. Like I shouldn't be happy after losing my best companion. But I woke up one morning and thought, Sweet Pea would HATE me this way, let me try smiling and remembering her. Immediately I was open to options to remember as well as move on in my life, THEN I was ready to open my heart to a new love.
It took me several months but I got Roscoe and my heart healed a bit. It has been almost 6 years now. I still feel Sweet Pea and I still talk to her (ok I am a nut) but she comforts me. I actually got Sparkle 2 years after Roscoe. She was born 2 years to the day after my Sweet Pea died. I knew it was a sign.
It sounds impossible now but you will get there and Mickey will be right there with you. He is as worried about you as you are him so get in the floor, kiss and hug him but play and be happy with him too. He is a blessing and he is the one getting you through this. That is alot on a little guys shoulders. Take care of yourself and lean on everyone here. We will support you in whatever you need. Hang in there! And I will be thinking about you. |