i am very very sorry about your friend!!
PLEASE DON'T feel guilty, though... AT ALL!! everyone mourns differently and a couple of days is not enough time for most people!! so please don't feel guilty for that!!
SENDING YOU A TON OF HUGS AND PRAYERS!!
i hope you get the comfort you need to help you through this time! please keep your head up, keep the faith, and everything will work out for you!
again.. i'm sorry!! xoxo.