Thank you all for your kind words and prayers. They are greatly needed. As a first aider, I do not feel like I did all I could to save Steve's life, and I have a lot of guilt. I am not the only one who feels that way. We are all trying to help one another through it, but it is hard. A week ago I had no idea how much my life was about to change...
I spoke to a grief counselor at work, it didn't help much. I think what helped me the most was our group session because it got me to see that I wasn't alone in how I was feeling. I was taught that showing emotions is wrong, so it's a tough process for me. I can't hold it in because it's so raw, but lord knows I try.
I'll check in every now and again... I am hoping that changes aren't too far away and that things will get better.. for now, I'm focusing on saying goodbye to a co-worker and friend and getting past the feelings of guilt... not sure that can happen, but I'm trying...
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