[brittahnee]

well we picked her up about an hour ago.

i didn't know it was going to be THAT rough.
i thought, hey -- she's alive, i can do this, i can be strong.
but when i got there, the very first thing i saw was this adorable little yorkie puppy, and i looked at her big brown eyes and i cried so much.
I broke down in the vet's office.
i knew i wouldn't be able to see her gorgeous eyes anymore...

so when it was time to bring sophie out, i still couldn't see her.
it was too much for me to handle.
so my mom went to the back to get her.
we brought her blanket, and her squeaky bone.
But she heard me crying and she had to get to me...

i feel horrible for saying it, and i hope you all understand and don't take this the wrong way, but i still can't look at it. You have to understand, she just came out of surgery. She is stitched up and very swollen. I hold her, pet her and let her sleep on my lap, but i just can't look at her face...
and for that, i feel like a horrible person...