I am so sorry that you are having to make this heartbreaking decision. It is definitely the most difficult thing to do, but sometimes, the most humane.
My dog Freeway also had cancer. We did surgery in the hopes that it would cure him.. it appeared to have done just that, until 6 months later. The vet told us there was nothing more he could do and that he had weeks to live. We started him on some pills to keep his airway clear (the tumor was on his windpipe) and kept him comfortable. My neighbor asked me one day how I would just know it was time. I didn't have an answer (only tears) as I honestly couldn't imagine waking up one day and knowing that today was the day! That day did come though... He was up all night struggling to breathe, and couldn't eat or drink - every time he tried, he would choke. I knew then that he was suffering and I could not let that happen.
He was a small dog, so we felt ok taking him to the vet to have it done - but we stayed in the car with him until it was time so we didn't stress him out needlessly sitting in the waiting room. If you can't get it done at home, I would suggest at least doing that... it helped him to stay calm and it helped me as well - those final quiet moments are ones I will cherish forever.
It's a horrible decision to have to make, and once again I am so sorry for your pain. I hope that you can take comfort in knowing that you gave your baby a happy life, and that she knows she is loved - now, and for always.
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