I cant tell you thank you enough for everyone that has posted. I have been longing for someone to talk to that would just understand how I feel. I usually do just eat one meal a day. Sometimes if its late, I think that I have gone so far without anything today, I don't want to "mess" it up and eat now. (I KNOW this is not normal) About a month ago everyone in my family (except my dh) would say I looked sick and awful and too skinny... now I think I have gained about 10 pounds back and they say I look better. But I hate that. That makes me feel like I am gaining all the weight back.
I know this sounds just silly and I know that this is not correct thinking at all. I know that. I don't even know how to enjoy my life anymore because this is all I think about. To give you an example of how different I look I went from an xl in shirts with a 38D bra size to an xs or s in shirts and a 34b bra. I use to wear a ten in pants and now a 0. If I put my clothes on in the morning and I feel like they are getting tight, it scares me to death. THANK YOU for listening to me. Thank you so much. Really, it is great to be able to write my thoughts down and have a little encouragment.
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Originally Posted by Smarty Bones  I apologize, my computer froze and my last part got cut off.
I am so very sorry you are suffering right now. Your courage to come here and talk about your experiences speaks volumes about your character. I am going to do some serious introspection and talk to a therapist again so that I will be more comfortable revisiting the past, in case I can help in any way
PLEASE DON'T GO AWAY. PLEASE KEEP TALKING TO US.
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