Thank you all!!
I am doing a little better today. I find that if I think about how lucky we were to have him, and what a blessing he was to be in our lives I can get through the day a little easier. I never thought I would miss picking up 50 toys a day off the floor, but man I wish the livingroom was full of them.
My fiance bought a little headstone with his picture engraved in it and we are making a little butterly
garden in the spring around his little resting spot. He tries to be strong, but I have found him breaking down when he is by himself.
None of us can stand how quiet it is around here. I listen so intently for those little pitter patter of paws
, and I still look for him when I come home from work. He used to run to the door and just get so excited..shaking his little nub. I would pick him up and say "Hi, Big Boy" and he would give me tons of puppy kisses. This was our ritual everyday!! I come home now and it is just silence. I have two boys 17 and 19, and they said that they can't stand walking into the house either and they can't remember what life was like before him.
With that being said: We all as a family, have decided to celebrate our little Cooper. There are so many puppies out there that would love to be as spoiled and have the life that Cooper had. We have so much love left to give, and our hearts are not complete without a little one running around... we have decided to get, not one, but two new yorkies. I always wanted a playmate for Cooper, but could never take that final step. When we find the right ones, they can play with him in the backyard forever
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To my little Cooper:
Even though the pain is unbearable that you are not here, I would go through it 1,000 times, just to have the time we had with you. You made me happier than I ever could have imagined and showed me a love that I never thought I would know. Rest in peace my little angel...Mommy will see you again!!!! I promise!