Hello...... i just read your sad story and just wanted to tell you, that I too lost my first yorkie 4 years ago in very similar circumstances to you. So i understand totally what you are going through. It will get easier and i said for a while that i would never have another, but i relented and now have another love of my life. Harvey....... who is such a different character to Benjie, but so very special too in his own way.
Just wanted to say how sorry i am - bless you.....