I so feel your pain, what a tribute to such a darling baby..I love when people can put their heart on paper.. I was not really very good at sharing those feelings..thank you for doing so.. and making me feel what I felt.
I also lost two at a young age.. it still breaks my heart, and I so think of them and do not think much time goes by that they are not forever instilled in my mind.
people ask me why I so care and protect my babies, and that no one can do as good a job as myself.. my answer to them is, lose one at a young age twice and ya know those kisses in the morning you did not allow.. and only at night.. well I now get kisses when ever they choose.. for as much as I love them.. I am so not a morning person to be woken with kisses.. well now they kiss, I roll over and have just learned to go back to sleep.. there are many many people who do not understand my love and how deep it is.. I do not even think my husband knows the extend of it sometimes.. although when I leave him with them.. I have to run by everything with him to remind him..he looks at me and laughs.. like he does not live in the same house.. cannot help it.. we just end up this way, making sure it never happens to us again.,
anne |