[sophiedog]

I've been sitting here with Lida and just can't stop crying. I feel so badly for her right now, wanting to be a normal puppy and unable to do so, she just whines so much and it breaks my heart to see her trying to hobble around. I don't know if she will be ok or not in the end and hope I'm not putting her through something awful for nothing. I've never seen anything look so painful but she doesn't seem to be in physical pain unless the bandages are off. I miss my friends and their encouragement, especially now that things are leveling off. I could still lose her any time and if she won't heal - I don't even want to think about that happening. Thanks everyone for caring, I have been reading the posts and have found comfort there. I just hope I've done the right thing by her and for her and haven't been selfish, sometimes it's hard to know the difference. The vet is still cautious but willing to do whatever it takes to get her through this. I will keep everyone posted on her progress personally, thanks julz for helping out so very much, and redvett for all the concern, sorry I haven't kept more in touch with my other friends like megan, yorkierose, brosie, whispersmom, and everyone else, I feel badly for that but you have all been with me through this and in my heart.