I am SO very very Sorry!!!
i can only imagine how must feel!!
You seem to be doing your research and doing everything you can to help your baby!! so good to hear you have found someone you want to contact!! that is great news.. (hopefully, you have got in contact with Nanci.. i only know a little bit of her story with Brooke.. but i know it is very positive!) again, i am very sorry for the sad news!! i will most definitely keep you and lil brownee in my thoughts and prayers!!!!
keep the faith, stay strong, and continue with the attitude & motivation you seem to have! brownee came into your life for a reason.. he is very lucky to have a great mama like you!
Good Luck and Keep us posted!! xo.