 Thank You.
[B] I just wanted to send a note to everyone and thank them for their kind PM's and for posting under Jersey's Memorial. Thursday was a week she is gone and I know it will take time. I keep thinking when I wake up that she is going to be here. Hubby put her stuff away for me. I'm putting pictures of the girls up and I have mixed feelings about Jersey's picture. A part of me wants to forget and another part of me feels guilty if I do. Newman was different it was a different situation and although it hurt I eventurally felt at peace knowing we did all we could and that he was no longer suffering. I can't find peace with Jersey. My husband don't understand how I can take this harder. I don't know about harder but different. I'm taking this differently then I did Newman. I feel badly because we don't have Jersey's ashes with us. I feel like I abandoned her. I was so distraught that day that hubby made the decisions and he said no to a private cremation. He told them that it was a nightmare he wanted to just forget happened. I want her pictures on the wall yet I can't bear to see her or talk about her. I can't even write anymore. I can't stop crying and I just pray to God she is at peace and that she didn't suffer when she went and that she understood how much I loved her.
Thanks again for all your posts.
Elaine |