[altigger74]

This morning two of my labs got out of the fence. When I was going to work this morning they were running along side the truck, (we've been having problems with them getting out even though it's a chainlink fence with an electrical fence inside), well I didn't have time to fight with them to get them back in the fence. Anyway as I pulled out of my driveway they were on the side of me (usually they only go a few feet and go back home), another van was coming the opposite dirrection so I pulled over because I didn't want them to get in between us. Well I looked in the mirrors and saw one of them start to go home and I saw the other go around the back of my truck so I pulled back onto the road and had just started to touch the gas when.........oh God I can still see it, I ran over her! I looked back and just saw her roll! I turned around and went to her and she was already gone. I ran home and got my husband up screaming. If it was any other day I would have stayed home from work but we were having a big auction and I had to be there. When my husband got up to go get her, I left for work. It's a 20 minute drive and I still don't remember getting there. This guilt is killing me! I go from being numb to hysterical! I've lost animals before but NEVER by my own hand! I can't even go to her grave site yet!
I'm not looking for sympathy and I certainly can't handle any more guilt. I am hoping that by talking about it more it will help me at least get it out of my head.