Well, first I'm glad you're back and that you're getting on the right track. I don't have diabetes but know my fair share of diabetics since my bach. degree was in nursing. So, my heart really goes out to you. Diabetes is different for everyone and I know it can really be tough to manage - especially at first. I think there might be some folks on YT who also have it, but I can't recall for sure. If not, have you thought about support groups or anything? Sometimes that can be helpful - just to talk to people who are going through the exact same things you are. If not, just know we're here for you - even if you just want to vent or complain about chocolate cake.