I am so sad. It is 1:37am, we just came back from the animal emergency clinic. I had struggled all day keeping the little one warm, making sure I was supplementing him with warm milk (Puppy Formula). I was making sure to keep him near his mommy, whom had already rejected him earlier in the day. I did not know what to do... I went to 2 different Vets and both said the little one was fine. They kept telling me to keep feeding him.
Later in the evening I noticed him gasping for air and looking weak and losing tone. I panicked, started crying, I had been with that baby all day, all night, and trying to help him live. Later at night his breathing was just getting more and more labored and I felt anxious. I started doing research online and I was reading about Newborn puppies gasping for air and how to treat it. At one site I came across, it actually mentioned to perform an aspiration with a small syringe bulb, I knew he was stuffy, I knew he couldn't breath, so I carefully tried it and before you knew it he spit up milk from his mouth and nose. I tried rubbing his chest to stimulate him, I tried keeping him warm... nothing worked... nothing at all...
His breathing got better and a sigh of relief came over me, but I called the ER and they told me to go right away.
My husband and I got into the car a midnight and drove to the hospital...
I wanted to believe that all qould be jsut fine. When we sat there waiting for about 35mins a doctor came out and told us that there was no hope...
That he was too little to do anything.
he offered to euthanize him and made it clear that there would be no salvation at all. He asked us what we wanted to do with the remains or if we just wanted to bring him home and give him supportive care?
We decided to leave him there and avoid more pain upon the little angel. I stayed in the room with him for 2 mins after I asked the dr if I could see him for one last time. In the room alone I prayed and gave him back to God. I could still feel his heart beat, his labored breathing, and his little paws only seemed to grasp onto my hand as I prayed and gave him several last kisses ever. I feel devastated, I have never been through anything so sad in my life.
I am afraid that I could have been the cause of his demise. I don't know what made him pass away so quickly, was it puppy fading syndrome, was it aspiration pneumonia ( and all my fault)... I just feel so sad.
All I know is that I hope his last few moments were not painful and I hope he did not know that I had to make this terrible decision.
As for mommy and the older baby, they seem to be doing well... but she knows and she has been feeling very nervous and for that fact she has had tummy problems and a very anxious mood. In fact when we came home she seemed very over protective of her remaining baby. They are together now and for now they seem to be doing fine.
I will keep you guys posted....