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Originally Posted by Graleyne  I think I have some kind of anxiety issue. I've always been a little neurotic, but lately it just seems worse than ever.
I am a control freak. Usually, if something it isn't done exactly the way I want it, I just get huffy and redo it myself. I have been steadily getting worse and worse about it. Here lately I find myself in almost a full blown anxiety attack if things aren't "just so".
For example: My oldest DD vaccuumed the living room for me last night. I looked at it and immediately got this very panicky, uneasy feeling that made me nauseous, my heart was pounding, and my hands were shaking and sweating. Why? Because the lines made by the vacuum cleaner were going the wrong way in front of the fireplace. She had them going this way ( | ) instead of this way ( --- ).
WHO gets that way over vac lines? 
I have been noticing that happening a lot lately over a lot of different things.
The dishwasher being loaded incorrectly, the glasses not put in the cabinet correctly, chairs not pushed up to the table and in the right spot, the kids' toys not put away exactly where they are supposed to be, books put back on the shelf out of order, the toilet paper roll put on the thingy backwards - all of that causes me to panic.
It started getting worse pre-DUG so I can't blame it all on him, although it seems to have gotten worse since he came and went. I think the stress kind of accelerated it.
I don't know what to do. Taking deep breaths and other relaxation techniques doesn't work. It has gotten to the point that other people are starting to really notice.  |
I agree with everyone else that you should see someone and I totally understand about medication side effects - I recently stopped taking everything because the side effects were worse than the condition I took them for. Like my allergy medicine made me stop sneezing every 5 minutes but gave me such bad headaches I couldn't function or made me a zombie. Now I just sneeze.
Anyway, I know you have kids and a husband who probably doesn't get it, but they need to try to accommodate you better. I have little quirks too like I HATE fans. I wear contacts and it bothers me, but it's also the noise it makes. My husband always leaves the fans in the bathroom on for hours (and turns them back on after I shut them off!) and constantly complains that we don't have a ceiling fan in our bedroom. We have those stand fans and I HATE THEM. Today is trash day and I want to sneak them in the garbage.... Anyway just one example but I think men are a little lazy sometimes and just don't pick up on subtleties like laundry on the floor, dishes in the sink when the dishwasher is empty, etc. My husband would live out of a laundry basket for weeks and not once think of putting the clean clothes away. Clutter just doesn't register with them. My dad used to listen to static on radio stations in the car and it drove my mom and me crazy but it's like he didn't hear it?
Anyway you're not the only one. Right now I can't even walk around my bed to make it because we are painting various rooms of the house and stuff is everywhere and I'm about ready to scream because I can't stand it being a mess like this.
Whoever said no carpet - I'm with you! Next house NO CARPET!