I think I have some kind of anxiety issue. I've always been a little neurotic, but lately it just seems worse than ever.
I am a control freak. Usually, if something it isn't done exactly the way I want it, I just get huffy and redo it myself. I have been steadily getting worse and worse about it. Here lately I find myself in almost a full blown anxiety attack if things aren't "just so".
For example: My oldest DD vaccuumed the living room for me last night. I looked at it and immediately got this very panicky, uneasy feeling that made me nauseous, my heart was pounding, and my hands were shaking and sweating. Why? Because the lines made by the vacuum cleaner were going the wrong way in front of the fireplace. She had them going this way ( | ) instead of this way ( --- ).
WHO gets that way over vac lines?
I have been noticing that happening a lot lately over a lot of different things.
The dishwasher being loaded incorrectly, the glasses not put in the cabinet correctly, chairs not pushed up to the table and in the right spot, the kids' toys not put away exactly where they are supposed to be, books put back on the shelf out of order, the toilet paper roll put on the thingy backwards - all of that causes me to panic.
It started getting worse pre-DUG so I can't blame it all on him, although it seems to have gotten worse since he came and went. I think the stress kind of accelerated it.
I don't know what to do. Taking deep breaths and other relaxation techniques doesn't work. It has gotten to the point that other people are starting to really notice.
