Oh, I'm so very, very sorry.
I lost one of mine through an anaesthetic, a few years ago, & I know how hard it is not to beat yourself up with the "what if's". It takes a long time to accept that you were doing the right thing & get over the "if only I hadn't gone ahead with the operation"
My heart goes out to you, it's a very hard way to lose your baby.
xx
Meggie |