Oh, Tracy! I logged on to check on Maggy May and I saw this.
I am so very very sorry for your family. What a difficult week this has been for you. I sure wish I had the perfect words to take all the pain away and to help your family...but I just don't. I can not even imagine what you and your husband are going through right now. I have never lost a loved one to cancer. Wow...
When my dad died suddenly and unexpectedly, I immediately went into survival mode to take care of my mom, my grandmother, and all of the business that needed taking care of....I knew I just had to keep going until things got back to normal. I didn't let myself stop until almost two years later when I finally realized that things weren't EVER going to go back to normal...that THIS was the new normal. By then, everyone else had grieved, made peace with it, and moved on. And I was left needing to cry and break down and all of the support was gone...it was really hard for others to understand...I felt like it had just happened and everyone else was like..."but that was two years ago"...
I guess what I am saying is you will probably be offering a lot of support to your family and your husband and all of the things that will need to be taken care of now. And I hope that you can take the time to let yourself work through this, too. We sure will be here with a shoulder to cry on if you need it...even if its two years from now when you are done taking care of everyone else.
I am praying for your family right now.
<<<<<hugs>>>>>
Carrie |