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Angela · 07-08-2008, 08:30 PM

Thanks ya'll. Class ended early tonight.....figures when I need to focus on something they let us out. I know I am making it worse for me, my neck is so tense from being so upset. I try to not think about it and that works for a little while, but when I start having to breath deeper to catch a breath it just reminds me of it all over again. I don't want to get excited b/c I have wanted another child soooo long and soooo bad. My sisters daughter is JUST like our own, she says she has two mommies and two daddies and she has her 5th birthday Thursady, party is a skating party on Saturday so I try to think about her and I don't let her know I am upset. When my sister passed she was pregnant with Maya's brother......Maya was not allowed to go in ICU to see my sister, she got to see her once when she got a private room for a week before being sent back to ICU. the baby died a few weeks before my sister......to Maya her mommie went to the hospital and her nor the baby ever came home. If I am defiantly preg. I will get proffesional help on how to tell Maya. My idea was to just come home with the baby so she didn't worry, Shane says we just can't do that. I have a lot to juggle either way. I know she will be scared if I am in the hospital for anything wrong too. Sigh.....I could really use something wonderful to happen right now. I still have baby stuff I bought when I thought I was preg. last year.... swing, diaper bag, two comforter/bedding sets......no bed or anything like that, but I am sure everything would be ok if I was.....I just dont want to be sick or something bad wrong. I need to settle down again and just pray for myself too. It really helps to have all of you, I can't express that enough....trust me.

Hugs,
Angie

07-08-2008, 08:30 PM	#28
Angela YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Baton Rouge, LA Posts: 849	Thanks ya'll. Class ended early tonight.....figures when I need to focus on something they let us out. I know I am making it worse for me, my neck is so tense from being so upset. I try to not think about it and that works for a little while, but when I start having to breath deeper to catch a breath it just reminds me of it all over again. I don't want to get excited b/c I have wanted another child soooo long and soooo bad. My sisters daughter is JUST like our own, she says she has two mommies and two daddies and she has her 5th birthday Thursady, party is a skating party on Saturday so I try to think about her and I don't let her know I am upset. When my sister passed she was pregnant with Maya's brother......Maya was not allowed to go in ICU to see my sister, she got to see her once when she got a private room for a week before being sent back to ICU. the baby died a few weeks before my sister......to Maya her mommie went to the hospital and her nor the baby ever came home. If I am defiantly preg. I will get proffesional help on how to tell Maya. My idea was to just come home with the baby so she didn't worry, Shane says we just can't do that. I have a lot to juggle either way. I know she will be scared if I am in the hospital for anything wrong too. Sigh.....I could really use something wonderful to happen right now. I still have baby stuff I bought when I thought I was preg. last year.... swing, diaper bag, two comforter/bedding sets......no bed or anything like that, but I am sure everything would be ok if I was.....I just dont want to be sick or something bad wrong. I need to settle down again and just pray for myself too. It really helps to have all of you, I can't express that enough....trust me. Hugs, Angie Last edited by Angela; 07-08-2008 at 08:32 PM.